we all eventually have to shed our facades
death cannot be cancelled. all psychological armors have to fall.
but nobody wants that to happen today.
instead, today is for enjoying and reinforcing our psychological moat.
but sometimes we remember “the truth” and contemplate upon it briefly.
Is 40s a second coming of age?
So far it seems that way to me
Desire-driven actions are queries into the gorilla's machine
gorilla is pattern matching while selecting the action/response. an action is a query into the underlying subconscious machine. expectation to find a hit and release a feeling for satisfaction.
worry comes from lack of knowing
gorilla knows that he doesn't know. he doesn't have confidence on the current path. he's in the fog.
worry is when the mind feels it's not going to get something important. maybe the mind knows in its depths what it really needs, will recognize it when it sees it. it can't name or describe what it is. but it can tell when something is not it.
there's a feeling that drives the gorilla from inside. but he cannot describe what it precisely is and where to get it. so gorilla gets fooled by the city and follows the crowd. and it can then tell that city doesn't know it either. but he can't prove it since he doesn't know what exactly he's looking for. so he worries about not finding something he needs.
don't ignore the mind. give it what it really needs. not what the city says that it needs. fear is in lack of knowing. confidence comes from trust, which comes from understanding.
i'm a gorilla in the city
and if you're reading this, you're probably one too.
i've come from place that i can't describe but i feel that i know that world. it's in my bones. this place is new. not sure how this works or where this leads to. trying to figure it out.
1-800 how's my driving?